Sept. 2023 - As I was settling into life in Spokane, I struggled with sorting through my uncertain feelings. I was more open to the possibility of a relationship with Liam than I was previously, but now we were across the state from eachother and he still hadn't said anything to me. I convinced myself that although I enjoyed our friendship, we would ultimately not be compatible as a couple.

Sept. 30, 2023 - While he was visiting Spokane, I pulled Liam aside for a quick chat on a determined mission to reject him. What was meant to be 5 minutes turned into 3-4 hours of talking under a full moon and a clear night sky. For the first time ever I heard dirctly from him how he truely felt. I was blown away by how much he had noticed about me and the exceeding thought he had put into his words. Needless to say I was incredibly flattered. Even so, I listened to my conscience and followed through with my original plan.

Initially I thought Liam took the rejection well and I was delighted that we were able to go back to being friends, though as the night progressed and after some gin, it was clear he was not over it and would not be giving up that easily. We smoothed things over on the phone a couple of days later joking about that night and ended on good terms, though we were both left feeling depressed and unsettled afterwards. Liam gave me distance after that, but he still held onto hope.

L&S

Wedding Day