I have been having a difficult time feeling confident as a bride to be these last few weeks. My body is not where I think it should be, my hair isn't long enough, my chest is too large, and my tummy isn't as slim as the brides that I see on Pinterest or in the magazines. This has been a growing mindset stemmed from my personal expectations and the random opinions of others as well. Finally, this week it built into something very painful and today I told my fiance that I don't feel good about getting married in the skin that I'm in. Of course he held me close and whispered sweet nothings and kindnesses to me, but I was still feeling quite down when I went to my dress fitting this morning.
I walked into Gracie's bridal and two of the workers, Elizabeth and Amy, greeted me with big smiles and warm welcomes as they always do. Amy could tell I was down, however. I put on my dress and stood in the mirror and all I could see was flaws. I was having a very weak moment. I sat down and began to cry. Amy brought me tissues and made me feel beautiful. She built my confidence up and finally I stood back up on the tiny stage and took a deep breath.
Amy adjusted my gown, smiled brightly when I made suggestions, had me spin around, and took pictures of me. All she kept saying was how stunning I looked and how I was going to be so beautiful for my groom. At one point I wanted to visualize how I would look with my hair up, and so Elizabeth came over, took her own hair tie out of her hair, and handed it to me just so I could put it up for a moment to see how it might be.
Then both of these women helped me pick out jewelry and stood back gasping in admiration at the sparkles of my earrings and the pearls on my dress. They made me feel incredible during a very dark moment. I won't forget it. Amy even opened up to me about the difficulties she has had with her weight loss and told me to be proud of my progress and of the beautiful body that I have achieved.
I will never forget the kindness these women showed me today. Today, for the first time in a little while, I feel as though I will be a beautiful bride. Thank you Amy and Elizabeth and Gracie's Bridal. You truly touched my heart.